A Few of My Favorite Verses

Sharing these with you today…

A reminder just when you need it: “God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in times of trouble.” Psalm 46:1

My family has always said this was my sister’s verse. Jesus was commissioning the disciples and as he was finishing, he took a moment to speak specifically to her ūüėČ (but, of course, his words are comforting to all): “And, lo, I am with you always, even until the end of the age.” Matt. 28:20

“…And if I perish, I perish.” Esther 4:16b. These words out of Esther’s lips are an amazing example¬†of¬†true bravery

“There is no greater love than this – that a person would lay down his life for the sake of his friends.” John 15:13. I want to be that kind of friend.

“Love always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.” 1 Cor. 13:7. Always.

When I¬†need it, “He restores my soul…” Pslam 23:3a

“Come to me all you who are burdened and weary and I will give you rest.” Matt. 11:28. Words of comfort from Jesus.

“She will give birth to a son and they will call him Immanuel, which means ‘God is with us.'” Matt. 1:23. God with us (sensing a theme?)

Yes, it’s the¬†most well-known verse on the planet. It also has a powerful beginning: John 3:16 “For God so loved the world…” John 3:16. Not just loved, but so loved. More than we can ever know.

My Fall ’15 Shopping List

The top 10 items I’d love to get my hands on for the upcoming season…

Super-dark blue Chanel nail polish: 
The new black
Earrings for multiple piercings:
Small studs for my 5 piercings
Weatherproof moto-boot:
‘cuz I’m a little bit Rock ‘n Roll
Flannel from J Crew:
Totally chill and comfortable
90s floral print dress
The 90s trend is making me feel sorta “Clueless” (in, like, totally the best way ever!)
 
Louis Vuitton card holder
Since most of my bags are small, a card holder is necessary. Wallets are too big…
Bikini for Jamaica 
And the best part is most of them are on sale!
or maybe I’ll go with this one… ; )

Body chain

This would also be perfect in Jamaica

Flare jeans 
Because after several years, my skinnies a break!
Fringe jacket
Pair with the flares and that 70s trend is complete

#residentwifeproblems

A little humor¬†and insight on what it’s like to be a medical resident’s wife:

1.  Your sleep schedule is totally messed up
Example: when your husband’s¬†4 AM alarm goes off, guess who else wakes up with him? Hopefully you’re one of those lucky people who falls back asleep quickly…
2. Unless you work in the medical field, your bad day at work is never as bad as, “I lost a patient today.”
Enough said.
3. Holidays don’t exist and are practically impossible to coordinate.
“Soooo… the only day we can do Thanksgiving dinner is the night of Wednesday, November 18th at 7 PM.”
On that note:
4. Couple friends ask when you and your husband can get together for dinner and you’re all…
5. You talk about how you never see your husband and people¬†say things like, “At least he’ll make a lot of money someday!”
6. You’ve had to explain over and over again to friends and family not in medicine how the process of residency works.
“Soooo…¬†it’s¬†just like Grey’s Anatomy, right??”
7. You do all the cooking, cleaning, errand running, and basically MSH (Make Sh*t Happen) like it’s your job.¬†
Oh, and you probably also have an actual job.
8. One word: Loans
9. Women hit on your husband all the time.
Older women, younger women, patients, nurses… But hey, can you blame them? He’s a young, brilliant doctor! Plus,¬†he’s too tired to notice or care anyway…
10.¬†Whether you like¬†where you matched or not,¬†you aren’t going anywhere until residency is over.
Which could be anywhere from 3-7 years
11. The calls asking for medical advice have already started rolling in.
Maybe you even hand some out yourself…
12. Your job is considered, “cute” by most of his colleagues
¬†And then¬†they ask when you’re going to start having kids.
But in all seriousness, it is an honor to be the wife of a resident physician.¬†My husband¬†is¬†training¬†incredibly hard and has devoted his¬†life to something greater than himself. It isn’t a walk in the park, but honestly, I couldn’t be prouder.

The Ones We Love Never Really Leave Us

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If you’re a big Harry Potter fan, I don’t need to tell you that the title of this post is actually a¬†Sirius Black¬†quote. And of all the wise Potter quotes, this one is among¬†of¬†my favorites. Not necessarily groundbreaking, but powerful, and if you believe it, comforting.

I will be the first person to say that there is no blessing in life greater than the people in it. I have the most wonderful husband and family anyone could ask for and my friends are truly some of the kindest, coolest people on the planet. I love them all very, very much. To the point that when I watch comic/action movies and the bad guy tells the hero he’s weak because of the people he loves, I think, “DANG! So many people could be used against me!” Good thing I’m no super hero…

But while the people in my life are incredible, there is one unfortunate thing I’ve had to deal with over the past several years: them not always being around. I moved to New York City right after college and was lucky enough to take one friend with me. But I still left everyone else behind, including Nick (my husband), who I was just dating at the time. After he and I got married, we moved to Columbus, Ohio. Again, I had him with me, but that was it. No family or friends. We moved back to Indiana last year and I got¬†one of the greatest gifts¬†ever: I NOW GET TO LIVE IN THE SAME PLACE AS MY FAMILY. I can’t begin to tell you how thankful I am for that. But not only did we lose our friends in Columbus, in the 4 years I had been gone, many of my close friends from Indy had moved as well. Opportunities came along and scattered them all over the country. Literally all over, from the East Coast to the West Coast and everywhere in between. Now don’t get me wrong, they live in the coolest places! I’m happy for them, but I miss them. It’s not something I think about even on a daily basis, but when I do, not only is it sad, it can feel almost‚Ķpainful. And it always felt like that, from the time I moved to NYC until now. Whenever you connect with someone and they become a close, constant part of your life, it‚Äôs like a cord builds between the two of you, keeping you close as you spin together in your shared world. But then if one of you moves on to something new, this connection that had been built and labored on has to be stretched across wider distances and now must to operate in two different worlds, instead of the same one. After that, one of two things happens: the cord must grow stronger to withstand the strain, or it breaks. And if it grows stronger, your relationship may be different, but can still feel like a very real part of your life.

 

Perhaps this idea is why I was struck last year¬†by a New York Times article about the movie Interstellar called “Love and Gravity”. Writer David Brooks points out in the piece that the movie doesn’t have a classic couple-type love story, but instead focuses on different kinds of love that cross both space and time. He then talks about the director, Christopher¬†Nolan, introducing quantum entanglement, which discusses the idea that two particles who closely interact with each other will then still behave as one even though they might eventually part. He then shows the movie‚Äôs characters that are in love acting out that very idea: though they are apart, they react in the same way at the same time to the same things. Applying quantum entanglement to people and love¬†may be¬†a little out there. It’s even borderline cheesy, but when I read that article, something clicked for me.¬†Because no matter how far away they are, I can still feel close to someone I love because the cord of our relationship keeps us connected. And we do finally see each other or interact again, it feels as if nothing has changed. We have interacted so often and so intimately that we even though we are apart, it doesn‚Äôt matter. We already had our effect on each other and built our connection. Like your mother always told you, the people you hang out with will rub off on you. Lucky for me, mom was right. Even though I miss my friends so much it hurts, I can still hear them through jokes I tell that were stolen from them. Sense them in a song that gave background to a special memory. Touch someone else‚Äôs heart through words of advice they once spoke. Feel their emotions in a heated discussion concerning an issue they are passionate about.¬†The people I love are here with me because somewhere along the way, they left their mark so deeply in my life, I can’t get rid of it. ¬†So no matter how far they go or how long they are gone, I can take comfort in the fact that they will never really¬†leave because they will always be a part of who I am.

Time for a Rhyme!

A little addition to a classic nursery rhyme…

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Little Miss Muppet
Sat on her tuffet
Eating her curds and weigh

Along came a spider
Who sat down beside her
And frightened Miss Muffet away

So the spider who spied her
Crawled over beside her
And charmingly went on to say:

“Darling Miss Muffet,
Come back to your tuffet
And run with me far, far away‚ÄĚ

Although she was flattered
The spider she splattered
And went back to her curds and her weigh

Brief Thoughts on Grace

Grace, it’s the name for a girl.

It’s also a thought that changed the world. ¬†-“Grace” by U2

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I’m not sure I attach any other virtue to¬†love more than I do¬†grace.¬†Not because Grace is the name of my amazing niece, but because I believe that showing grace to someone is one of the ultimate ways to love them. And while¬†this post is not about my niece, she can’t help but remind me of the word¬†for which she is named. As a 9 month-old child, she is a beauty unspoiled by this world and bestows her favor freely and without condition to anyone who will accept it.¬†And what¬†could¬†be¬†more gracious than that? However,¬†some day the world will not only teach her to reject those who cause her pain, they will encourage her to do so. As difficult as it is to imagine the pure heart of Grace being broken, she will surely find herself faced with the choices we all do when it comes to pain and forgiveness.¬†I’ve written before that when we are hurt by someone, we often respond instinctually by¬†lashing out to¬†hurt them back. Grace is the only thing that turns that instinct¬†upside-down. In a¬†moment of pain,¬†we can¬†act out of selfishness or we can show what it really means to love.¬†I hope I am always able to hold on to this principle. I can say with certainty that I’ve not always been able to act it out. It’s not a revelation that the people we care for the most have the greatest capacity to cause us pain. In my life, people I have loved dearly have hurt me terribly. Then again, I have also hurt people terribly. But¬†being able to work through a mistake that has caused pain, whether on the giving or receiving end, has gifted the most beautiful and rich relationships in my life. And because of that, I couldn’t be more thankful for grace.

Listen to “Grace”¬†here

My Favorite Glee Moments and Feeling Through Music

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I wish I could tell you what inspired this post. I honestly don’t remember. Maybe it was a song that popped up on my iTunes or an ad I saw on TV? But however random it may seem, I love me some Glee. Call me a geek for feeling that way (or a…Gleek?) but that show was written for people like this former show-choir, Journey-loving, music girl.¬† Yes, it was cheesy and ridiculous, but that was part of Glee’s charm. Time magazine said,”when Glee works‚ÄĒwhich is often‚ÄĒit is transcendent, tear-jerking and thrilling like nothing else on TV.” However, it definitely ran way too long and as the seasons went on, the storylines became more and more disappointing. But the first few seasons had some beautiful moments that ¬†were¬†achieved largely because of¬†one key factor: Glee¬†gave¬†context to great songs. Sure, a song can have a catchy melody, interesting lyrics and be performed by phenomenal musicians, but when you layer in personal experience and weave in a good storyline, what you end up with¬†is emotional magic. It was that combination that made Glee a show that could draw you in and keep you watching. Victor Hugo is quoted saying,¬†‚ÄúMusic expresses that which cannot be put into words…”¬†Like many of those dramatic¬†teenager characters,¬†I too have felt the pain of heartbreak and loss in my life. And I’m pretty sure that breaking out into some amazing ballad accompanied by a full orchestra would DEFINITELY have helped get me through my hard times.¬†With¬†every high belt and shed tear, I was right there tearing up too.¬†I connected to what they were going through¬†and the music woven into their story expressed their emotions better than simple words ever would. It’s the very reason that in a moment of sadness I turn to¬†my “Emo” playlist on iTunes (Go ahead, judge. I made it in college and it’s darn good!).¬†I have a feeling or emotion that I need to experience and, for me, music will bring it¬†out better than anything else.¬†So with that in mind, since I like lists, I have written up my top Glee moments that hit home and brought out all the feelings. There were many exciting and clever covers that came from the show that I love, but these are the performances¬†that tug at the¬†heart strings…
*Side note: 3 of the greatest songs ever are also on this list
Santana is struggling with coming out and her feelings about Britney. During this song, her always tough exterior breaks down. This is one of my favorite songs anyway and seeing her on the edge of sobbing throughout the entire performance¬†reaches me. When I’ve had a tough day and listen to this song, I have literally reacted the exact same way. I don’t necessarily love Gwyneth Paltrow’s voice, but it doesn’t distract from this moment.
I never really liked Mercedes and Sam as a couple¬†and this is supposed to be their breakup moment. So that’s whatever. But they literally aired this episode RIGHT AFTER Whitney Houston passed away. She died on Feb. 11 and the show aired the 14th. I mean…come on! Oh and Mercedes’ voice is everything.
Quinn reveals to the club that she’s pregnant and her world is about to come crashing in on her.¬†The song is shown after she¬†breaks down as a performance by the club. Quinn is catching her breath and trying to hold herself together the entire time, but really, she’s about to lose it. But it’s OK because when she does, her friends are telling her (through song) that they’ll be there for her. *feelings*
Rachel is struggling with her looks and thinking about getting a nose job. She and Quinn sing together in this “mashup” of songs that is very clever but also hauntingly sad as both girls beautifully¬†bring attention to the importance and concern they have for¬†their¬†looks. What girl can’t relate to that?
This is in an episode where several couples the audience has grown attached to¬†are breaking up. So naturally it is dramatic. Again, when you put some context around an already great song, you’re going to see it in a whole new way. Then the show¬†goes through a whole montage of the beginning of everyone’s relationships. Also dramatic. But¬†dramatic in a way that works for me so that I was all,¬†“Everyone get back together, NOW!!”
I wasn’t a big fan when a new Glee class came along, but this is a great¬†moment for Unique. Just like I Feel Pretty/Unpretty, it hauntingly strikes a chord because it¬†was perfectly chosen for¬†this openly transgender character. I have never had Unique’s struggles, but I can still feel them so poignantly¬†through¬†this song.
If I Die Young – Make You Feel My Love – Seasons of Love
All of these songs are in the episode “The Quarterback” dedicated to Cory Monteith (aka Finn Hudson) after his passing. They are all amazing, but the fact the you can feel the genuine emotion of the actors coming through is enough to being you to tears. It’s not acting any more, it’s a real¬†tribute.¬†Just watch¬†the videos and cry.
It’s hard to pick a favorite overall performance from this show, but this might be it for me. It is the stuff of musical theatre dreams. On a previously recorded track, Rachel hears the voice of her birth mother (Idina Menzel) singing to her and joins her in a duet expressing her desire to someday meet her. The chills¬†I still¬†get speak for themselves and Lea Michele, I could not love you more.
And one happy song to lift you back up after all that…
I love this medley (“mashup”). It was originally done by Judy Garland and Barbra Streisand, but I wouldn’t have known about it if it weren’t for Glee (which has happened with more than one song). There are many hard, testing¬†moments for the poor kids on Glee. But in this moment, everything is right and good at McKinley High. Also, Rachel and Kurt are too adorable together. Both videos are here for your enjoyment, “so let’s sing a song of cheer again…”